Sunday, April 1, 2012

Teaching Math - Pt. 5

One of the most important lessons I have learned is the need to establish and maintain indifference. I have(/aim for) an attitude towards my students which I can only describe as apathy - understood of course, not in the conventional sense of the word, as if I have no care or concern for my students' success. Rather, I am apathetic towards my students somewhat in the sense that God is apathetic toward creation: in no sense am I in anyway under compulsion to feel and act toward them other than out of the freedom of my own will. Thus, all acts and feelings towards them is gracious condescension on my part, untangled by the mess of their mixed and scattered preteen natures and desires. Both my wrath and my blessing stem from this, so that when I am kind, it is total gift, and when I am wrathful towards them, it is out of utter unconcern for things such as "my ego" and wholly borne out of a sheer working out of my willing that "This Will Be."

And they love it. They know that all the burdens of necessity are freely covenanted burdens, burdens such as behavior contracts and the like. They love it. They love it because, at the end of the day, they can rest in the constancy and immutability of my demeanor. As one fellow teacher has described it to me, "they always know what to expect." To what extent parenting can be like this, I do not yet know, dear reader, but this is how I carry myself for my students: out of love for them, I choose not to care about them.

2 comments:

Andrew said...

Hey

Did you write the article in 2008 calling christian hip hop a failure?

Scott Schultz said...

I did.